Claw Your Heart Out

Ramble time! ~2

Sat, 17 Jan 2026 07:29:11 GMT

HIYA!

SO much has been going on; or at least that's how it feels I have to update you all on everything.

Okay so first of all, I'm one year older now! YAY?? (I had a mini crisis about that but its okay because I worked it out!) >ᴗ<. I got a sewing machine for my b-day, the idea of running my own Boutique is TANTALIZING. I've been getting a lot more into fashion and aspire to be just like Bayonetta because I love her so much AUGH. I've been living by the motto "Too much is never enough" when it comes to my outfits MWAHAHAH. (within reason of course. ^_< -★) And because of that I've been getting SOOO may complements from super cool looking people and it makes me feel all sweet and jolly inside~

AND, much like Bayonetta, I've been working on my ambition! Im less focused on love now and much more focused on self improvement, mentally, morally, creatively and ACADEMICALLY. i've been getting such good grades and I'm so proud of myself because I'm such a DIVA (working on comfortably complementing myself too LOLZ). I've set my sights on where I wanna be and I'm gonna take the steps I need to get there even if they're small. I wanna be so rich that I can be a cold, powerful, sugar mommy that men either hate, are scared of, or worship. ⎛⎝( ` ᢍ ´ )⎠⎞ᵐᵘʰᵃʰᵃ

Even though I'm too soft to be that scary (probably). Im more likely to end up as a wealthy philanthropist. lololololz (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)

I guess the downside to working so hard is that when you aren't as productive for long time, like when you're on breaks and stuff, you feel kind like a big fat FAILURE (╥ ω ╥). I wonder if other people feel that way too. BUT the good thing is that I'll be able to adapt, I'm pretty flexible and the transition into working so hard now feels like taking candy from a limp noodle. I may be turning into an ACADEMIC ENCHANTED ARM MOUNTED GATLING GUNNN ( ꈍ◡ꈍ)

ALSO I LOVE MY BIO TEACHER NOW <333 (plot-twist >𐃷<⭑.ᐟ) shes been super nice to me recently so YAYAYAY.

ALSO #2, I got a NOSE PIERICING!!!!!!11!1! After BEGGING and PLEADING. Finally (*´▽`*)

Not much else is new, and I've been sure to make time for creative stuff like making lil stories and learning how to tween / animate!!

Hope this hasn't been too longg~

XX~

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So far...

Sat, 27 Sep 2025 01:12:19 GMT

So I'm sick.🧍

And its the kind of sick where it feels like you're swallowing an entire brick. I HATE IT. and whenever I sneeze, it hurts. When I cough, it hurts. when I exist for too long, it hurts. Its making me want to put my head into concrete. Not to mention junior year has started for me and its making me feel sick in a different way.

Like brah, buddy, bruv. I know its supposed to be hard but good GOD. I have honors classes and surprisingly those are the easiest ones- not to mention my bio teacher is genuinely an evil witch like OMG.

If Evil-Kenivil had a sister. It would be her.

So basically to put all of that into a cute little shit bow, I'm sick and stressed out. Also there's a whole bunch of friend drama but honestly nothing new. I've just been feeling more irritable since I'm under the weather and under the weight of SO MUCH HOMEWORK.

On the brighter side of things though...

um...

I ordered Papa Johns? Yeah.

XX~

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1095 days

Thu, 12 Jun 2025 00:59:23 GMT

Dude, its been 3 bitter valentines days, 3 Halloweens that were spent watching every sequel to every horror movie alone, and about 1,095 days yearning for love that seems to be desperately trying to RUN from me. (ʘ言ʘ╬)

I recently got out of an -- interesting (to say the least) relationship about three years ago, with someone that I now realize was definitely the right match for me and vice versa. I've moved to a new town and school since then. I'm a sophomore in HS now, and ALL and i mean ALL. Of my friends are either in a relationship, or close to being in one. Don't get me wrong I am happy for them, but that doesn't mean I cant be the slightest bit jealous too right?

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Ramble Time! ~1

Wed, 07 May 2025 05:12:04 GMT

✨ Hey guys! So, one thing to know about me is that I'm a MAJOR procrastinator, like to the point where - for some reason, I just cant do even the things that I want to do. (Like how it took me literally forever to do a single journal entry.) Things like write fan-fics or start drawing again. I think its mostly because of self doubt, like being scared to even start.

Either way I'm trying to get better at that kind of stuff, and I'm guessing that starts with my self esteem.

But that bitch is PERPETUALLY LOW. LIKE SINCE FOREVER. Like from my looks to my overall human ability to survive or do basically anything 💀. Even though deep down I know I can't be any worse than anyone else. I cant say that I'm 100% sure where it would stem from through and I don't really feel like digging through random repressed memories right now - but maybe later LMAO.

Anyways~ I think the part I want to improve most is my writing, like, I made an entire new account on Wattpad, promised not one but TWO new books and haven't even written a single syllable yet. I'm worried that whatever I write wont be half as good as what I read on a daily. But instead of trying to improve I just kind of hide, and I wanna change that. I mean, its not like my stuff is terrible - right? The only way to push forward is to jump in head first. I'll try my best. ٩(ˊᗜˋ )و

I'm thinking of writing a Sally Face fanfic or Maybe a Danganronpa one to start! Its probably going to be the latter, its just a lot more natural for me.

Oh I should also probably catch up on my French Duolingo.

Here's hoping you could keep up with my rambling! Au revoir, mes amis! <3

XX~

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Welcome~!! XOXO

Fri, 14 Mar 2025 21:15:54 GMT

Hi everyone! I'm glad you're here, whether from my Wattpad or Tumblr, or even if you randomly stumbled across my silly little page! Feel free to grab a cup of tea, get cozy, and stay because there's always something going on in my head and my life. So if you're into hot goss(ip) or deep thoughts, you should stick around <3

Here's where you can find me!

Wattpad --> https://www.wattpad.com/user/Cl4wingM3rcy

Tumblr --> https://www.tumblr.com/angelloveso-o?source=share

Don't be shy to comment and communicate! I'm always down for new friends, it's nice to know that I'm being heard.

XX~

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