Ramble Time! ~1
May. 7th, 2025 12:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
m3rcyeyes✨ Hey guys! So, one thing to know about me is that I'm a MAJOR procrastinator, like to the point where - for some reason, I just cant do even the things that I want to do. (Like how it took me literally forever to do a single journal entry.) Things like write fan-fics or start drawing again. I think its mostly because of self doubt, like being scared to even start.
Either way I'm trying to get better at that kind of stuff, and I'm guessing that starts with my self esteem.
But that bitch is PERPETUALLY LOW. LIKE SINCE FOREVER. Like from my looks to my overall human ability to survive or do basically anything 💀. Even though deep down I know I can't be any worse than anyone else. I cant say that I'm 100% sure where it would stem from through and I don't really feel like digging through random repressed memories right now - but maybe later LMAO.
Anyways~ I think the part I want to improve most is my writing, like, I made an entire new account on Wattpad, promised not one but TWO new books and haven't even written a single syllable yet. I'm worried that whatever I write wont be half as good as what I read on a daily. But instead of trying to improve I just kind of hide, and I wanna change that. I mean, its not like my stuff is terrible - right? The only way to push forward is to jump in head first. I'll try my best. ٩(ˊᗜˋ )و
I'm thinking of writing a Sally Face fanfic or Maybe a Danganronpa one to start! Its probably going to be the latter, its just a lot more natural for me.
Either way I'm trying to get better at that kind of stuff, and I'm guessing that starts with my self esteem.
But that bitch is PERPETUALLY LOW. LIKE SINCE FOREVER. Like from my looks to my overall human ability to survive or do basically anything 💀. Even though deep down I know I can't be any worse than anyone else. I cant say that I'm 100% sure where it would stem from through and I don't really feel like digging through random repressed memories right now - but maybe later LMAO.
Anyways~ I think the part I want to improve most is my writing, like, I made an entire new account on Wattpad, promised not one but TWO new books and haven't even written a single syllable yet. I'm worried that whatever I write wont be half as good as what I read on a daily. But instead of trying to improve I just kind of hide, and I wanna change that. I mean, its not like my stuff is terrible - right? The only way to push forward is to jump in head first. I'll try my best. ٩(ˊᗜˋ )و
I'm thinking of writing a Sally Face fanfic or Maybe a Danganronpa one to start! Its probably going to be the latter, its just a lot more natural for me.
Oh I should also probably catch up on my French Duolingo.
Here's hoping you could keep up with my rambling! Au revoir, mes amis! <3
XX~
